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Who am I?

I’ve been asking myself this question frequently lately. 

It takes a large amount of soul searching to discover ones self. You have to push away all false exteriors. You have to brush off those thoughts of what others will think. More than likely, you’ll have to face fears that you would rather avoid or keep hidden. 

But who am I?

There are many facets to who I am. I find when I come face to face with my true self, it actually can wear many masks. But, in the end, it’s me. Uniquely me. And there is no one else like me. Anywhere.

I am a design addict. Not just graphic design but interior, fashion, and everything in between. Though I may never, or would never, pay the money for what I see, I can still appreciate the beauty. I’m addicted to Kinfolk Magazine, Dwell, and everything in between.

I love music but it depends on the mood, scenery, and, sometimes, even the season. I can find myself listening to more reggae in the spring and summer, while diving into more folk, classical, and ambient during the cooler months. 

I dress to fit my mood. There are days when I wear jeans and a t-shirt. But there are also days when I feel like wearing a button down with a sweater and slacks. No matter the season though, I do find I want to be barefoot as much as possible.

I drink more wine in the cooler months. 

I like watching a crude comedy just as much as I like watching Downton Abbey and Monty Python. 

I love comics. I’m a geek and I’m proud.

I am a follower of the teachings of Jesus but I also embrace the teachings of Buddha and have wholeheartedly given myself into the practices of yoga and meditation. I don’t feel I need a religion to define who I am. 

I am a proud father and husband but have many days where I feel I am an inadequate provider. I wouldn’t be good if I didn’t feel this way once and a while.

I love simplicity and would love to live a true simple, wholesome life. My ideal setting would be where there is a lot of land but still close enough to civilization to where I don’t feel like I abandoned the world. On a side note, I have a strong fascination and draw to Iceland. Always have.

This is who I am. Or, at least, a small part of it. I’m delving deeper to finding my true self. The peace I am feeling embracing this true me is immeasureable. A calm I’ve never felt and I feel like smiling, a lot. 

That being said it’s painfully obvious I have neglected this blog which, at one point in time, was a great outlet for me. So I’ve decided to take it in a different direction. I want fenikkusu to become a digital of me, not just a place for ramblings. My interests in one place. Where, if you for some reason, you wanted to learn more about who I am you could tell by what I post. Expect more photos, videos, music, and, of course, ramblings.